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12. I go on the system of trust

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As I get closer to complaints, moronic attacks on people close to me are possible because I don’t normalize creeps. I also exit long before one is anywhere near creeps.

And I have only met a handful of creeps (an Indian doctor at a clinic in a red state in 2013. No connection with my workplace. Went there for a routine visa related check up and was asked to do weird shit. It is a specific and rare enough in my experience pattern of very confusing creepiness of a distinctly local brand. Pachauri used to try to get to know the parents of women he harasses. I don’t follow the thought process there.
But the main sexual harasser I met was a holographer who did contract work and had a history of creepy behavior with men and very meninist views and this was in 2014. He harassed me within 3 months and I got the fuck away immediately; a creepy man at an Akshaya Office in 2016 or 2017).

That aside a Darwin Awards (or really a JackAss candidate in hell showed up at my house in 2023 and drew my attention to bikes which I had not paid attention to before. Not the sort of thing to do. But even I let that off as an example of the kind of male idiot who thinks it is a good idea to go and take selfies with a bear. But he was okay. Complete idiot. But that aside. And it made my life worse. But I forgive him. What was not cool was some creeps wearing caps who would walk up and down my street and drive bikes hatefully. If that is part of a pattern, the people involved are people who should be at least in some cases be fired if they have jobs where they make calls like that in data science, street traffic studies etc. Or at least have strict oversight.
I am dubious about stuff I see being shilled no doubt as “cleaning methods” or some such abomination with ludicrous attacks on my work ethic. Yeah I am not working yet. I am also not getting paid. And being a complainant who in fairness has never sentimentalized her position so much as found this parade of lunacy a strain, especially as the only person actually labeled mental.
I let the one Jackass candidate who claimed to be my “classmate” off the hook. I let very few people off the hook, including myself.

I don’t do obviously unnatural shit like normalize all this bullshit but very soberly!!!!
I am healthy!!!! This random trash but no normal human coping.
That is different.

I have a clear idea of healthy societies and systems work that you cannot just overwrite with bs. I need to see why.
Not just “I work hard!!!! Creep rights are human rights!!!”

When you eschew what can in no way be called anywhere near due process for some sort of..if I were in no way involved, I confess to finding the sheer unprogrammed natural lunacy..
Again I like Seinfeld. I never wanted a starring role as the pigwoman or worse that icky guy Blake Lemoine’s bot come to life.

Cut it out. Idiots. But if you shattered my eardrums or were a self serving creep, no dice and so far some harmless lunacy (don’t try to reproduce it! That is not how harmless lunacy that makes you laugh even in hell works. Ger Yasha Levine or Ed Zitron or Chris Ketcham etc as character witnesses. They are all very easy going so good luck!!!!) aside it doesn’t look good.

I like the doctors locally as much as I hate the hospitals. Don’t go and annoy them with this trash because people in these parts tend to be mild and easy-going, I am not.

I just couldn’t figure this drivel out. Marijuana should be legalized without rubber stamps, ai, gaming etc piling on. The Human Terrain Systems had a few good ideas, but people who take to such stuff do not tend to be good at clamping down on serious harassment and fraud and instead bully and smear women like me.
It makes it a strain.
I can back salvaging a few genuinely worthwhile things. That is rare. I can let the one or two idiots I have met off the hook without creepy “verification”. I consult myself alone and don’t pull all this shit and then try to boss me.

I am sure I can stand the test of time bettee than you if democracy and civilized enlightenment rather than “creepy but popular!!!” transaction of the day is the order.


I am filing complaints but I am reasonable if you stop lying so self servingly.


As for the rest of you out there:



I have to go work. Ineptly..


None of the three labs I worked in, nor any I had meaningful interactions with between May 2001- April 2012 should have to open up their devices in the name of “open science”.
I am a complaintant and I say this because I do not think it is a “witch hunt” when some people have to.
But just because my third lab and adjacent labs annoyed me too much (DON’T SEND PEOPLE TO SHITTY PSYCH HOSPITALS for not sounding like this: “oh yes i have struggled with this made up bullshit issue from the time I was a wee child”. That may be your explanation strategy for anyone who is not a lunatic Type A. Or at least a sinner who can be redeemed.
That is not everyone. I don’t want an option between a bible banging (no offense) sobriety script and self loathing bawdy humor with some atrocious hacker or gaming creeps (no offense..I am not laughing with you or at you “bruh” and that is where it is at least a JackAss candidate not the standard issue brainless creep or sleazebag yes vagara..Hindi for etc).

Hate large crowds of the type of people who move towards this thing rather than in scrambling haste in the other direction.

This isn’t sludge. But this will take by my estimate long enough to fix in any way that respects the constitutions of both democracies involved - India and the US. I am sorry, I am too wary of other countries. I can barely understand the lunacies of these two. I just can’t do “creep or not international”.

But I am not sharing anything at this point unless it truly is something I would back and with the amout of information fracked out of me please figure it out better.
I was hoping to avoid my last mentor, but that may not be feasible. I support him at the level of: not a creep, not a meninist, I cannot evaluate his Science because it is too far outside anything I get. And he would have to explain how he is different from a ghastly type like Alex Pentland or how this was not a coup against the public sector by Google etc. If he does that okay. But as of this date, yeah he is probably one of the better people in this shithole. That is not saying much, though I did like that one biology Prof. And his wife must be decent. She didn’t alarm me like the women around those things typically does.
So that is a guarded 👍.

But I was genuinely fond of my main lab. It is the one thing that has kept me from becoming entirely cynical and world weary and I cannot pool them in with other labs.
Though i did like my first lab. They were nothing like EECS. And they were cool. But they were a more generic science lab that does good work.
My postdoc lab was actually cool. I actually liked them as scientists and as people. It wasn’t merely not torture to be around them. It was actually fun. Damn shame these systems drive most people like that out of science to make room for those nice Epstein people. 🤭.
Artistic license!!!)

Science is hard. It is better for society when people chose dull hard science isn’t it?
Maybe not making it torture and driving away people turned off by all this mucking around with people’s heads stuff is better.
Just a thought. I do judge eveyone by my main mentor and he was cool. Don’t go and find him to stare at him now.
Its Dave Angus!!! He was my main mentor!!!!
🤭
I question my behaviors sometimes.
Oh well..