I've had losses before, but none so devastating as my Grandma

[Rhiannon12866]

8. I understand. I was probably closer to my grandmother than anyone else.

I was her first grandchild, and a girl, so I spent a great deal of time with her and she had a huge effect on my life. We went so many places together and no matter what, she was always there for me. She lived until 9 days before her 98th birthday, so I certainly couldn't ask for more, but I still think about her and miss her so much, I think of all the things I still want to ask her.

As for your dog, I've had a dog for most of my life and other than the dog I grew up with (who I trained myself) they've all been rescue, mostly senior dogs, and I usually had two. I've had 2 beloved pups who lived past 18, but I lost my "puppy" at age 16 at the end of June and since I adopted him at 5 months, I had him the longest. I don't know if I can have another dog in my life, two of my dogs I adopted when their owners died and I'm no longer 30 - or 40. But I was used to having my Jack with me most of the time and I miss him constantly, still can't believe he's not here and I still inadvertently look for him, keep thinking I forgot something, that he needs water or would like to share my dinner.

I didn't mean to go on about myself, I just wanted you to know that what you're feeling is shared by someone else.