Hi loves,

[orleans]

3. i've been in the process of selling my house

(my mom's house) for the past six months and am heartbroken to leave it

i can't/won't get into it now but i've been in the process of anticipatory grief over this house for as long as my mom has been gone (over six years now).

i sat outside the other night, knowing it was my last full moon from the backyard. cried my eyes out. i've been here for 51 years.

the grief over having to lose this place has been tremendous

but i ran out the clock and then some

i've never really moved before (except when i was seven and moved here)

i hate goodbyes.

and change