I Don't Believe In Heaven And Hell

[cilla4progress]

9. Last night being one of the worst of my life -

Between the biggest invasion in Europe since WWII, and spending the afternoon and evening in the ER with my husband who crashed into a tree skiing and dislocated his neck (surgery today was successful)...

My daughter asked, "why did this happen to dad?" Mind you this was his 3rd major injury accident in 3 years....another story.

While my mind raced all night as I tried to sleep, I kept negative cycling to, yeah, what did he/we do to deserve this? How did I anger the gods. There is nothing worse than seeing a loved one suffer...

Then I realized - no; it is all random. The gods didn't wage retribution against our family for some screwup I did somewhere along the line - and I'm sure there are plenty. It isn't his "karma". By the way - what's up with the Buddhist view that if you are suffering in this life it's because you fucked up in the last. How cruel!

No: it's all completely random (so long as you aren't being reckless).

And I found far more comfort in that, than in believing some diety decided that it was our turn in the barrel.

Sometimes seems religion has it backward!! I don't get where the succor and confort is in that!!