Been a while since I've posted here, but I've just been so down lately

[Terra Alta]

And hoping y'all can help me.

I've been having really bad bouts of depression off and on for the past two months. I thought it was just the holiday blues(and working retail doesn't help with that) but it's still going on and today has been a really rough day.. came home from work and all I wanted to do is sleep. The biggest thing on my mind right now is my best friend, who is nearly twice my age an having some health issues right now.. just been so worried about her today.

Also, my family isn't very supportive of my illness(just telling me to snap out of it, as if that's possible) and I just don't know where to turn. Sometimes I'll cry myself to sleep thinking people just don't care. I'm not as bad now as I was in 2007(when I had to be hospitalized twice) but I am pretty down. I could use any advice or encouragement y'all can give now.. thank you!