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3. Sometimes I think that what we get is what we got

I can't write about our daughter on line because I think its inappropriate even though I'm never much for being appropriate .

the mental illness becomes or creates a physical illness like eating disorders or drug use and abuse which are then sometimes called addictions . Our daughter is in bad shape which in turn makes me worry so much that I can't eat when it is very important to start eating after throat cancer....(bummer huh ? ) . I thought that if I died she would get shocked out of her stuff ( really stupid idea) while I was going thru cancer all my stuff came up when I was trying to figure out a reason to live thru the pain -----yada yada yada boring but then I realized death isn't such a mystery and we all love a good mystery don't we ?

I want my daughter to get better to make it thru this this life and I want to get better but can't think of a reason why because I can't remember ever being that magic happy they talk about for more than a few moments here or there and at the same time think that happyness
might be a scam to sell everything from designer teeth to inflatable bar stools .

I hate that phrase day by day but that may be all we get and its all we got . zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz