The Blessing of "Aloneness" ...

[FirstLight]

I don't think I have ever lived truly alone before. I went from living in my parents' house, to living with my first husband, my sister, then having a baby, and on and on... My kids grew up a couple years ago, but then I had that crazy beyotch in my house. LOL

So I am actually discovering my own tides and needs. How I really *do* like no noise in the house. No TV in the bacikground, and often no music unless I am working on someth8ing that needs ADHD focus. Otherwise, just listening to my own breathing and the birds outside is music...
Nobody opening doors or making mme jump by slamming stuff around or cursing and making the air feel toxic.

I can drum when I get up, and before bed. I can take a bath with the door open and candles burning. I can eat whenever and whatever I want. I can listen to my SELF in a way I have never had the joy or freedom to do.

This is not lonliness, far from it. It's loving my aloneness, and being WITH and IN myself.
I'm so fucking grateful for this time in my life...