Hello! I haven't posted here much lately, but I often visit. [View all]
I'm a huge fan of Tobin S because he writes so clearly about his own experiences. Myself, I'm not so good at that. Maybe I've posted some good stuff in the lounge or my journal.
When my meds are not right I suffer major depressive disorder.
Yep, just like this. The artist got the hair right too:
Except if it was really, really bad, I'd just freeze to death. Forget the fire.
Fortunately I'm not the sort to kill myself because the OCD gets in the way. If I'm dead I can't do the stuff I need to do, right? That would be INTOLERABLE! So I can cruise along in a dark nightmarish world for a long time, doing only those things I need to do. It used to be running and writing computer code. Sometimes during those dark times I'd be "asked" to take time off college. So I'd be living in my car in a church parking lot (a very nice pastor said it was okay), running, and starving to death while writing code in the University computer lab. And oh, I also have a diagnosis of Asperger's syndrome, but I fake normalcy pretty well, which is why it's so hard to catch me when I'm in my blackest places. Meds weren't so good thirty years ago, but now they are. I'm married and have two college age kids, and I'm faking normalcy a little bit better than I used to. At least here on DU.
Anyways, I noticed mopinko is the only host here while EFerrari is on hiatus, and I was thinking I could be a host too because now that I'm on MIRT I'm always here on DU.
Is that okay?
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