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[femmedem]

2. Oh Liberal Loner. You are one of my favorite DUers.

Not just because of the way you translate the beauty you see in the world into art, but because of your kindness and support of the rest of us.

This is one of the rare evenings when I have something planned (a dear friend's art opening) and Mr Femmedem and I are leaving fairly soon. If that weren't the case, I would message you my phone number so we could talk this evening.

I lost someone I loved dearly to suicide over thirty years ago. I've also known people who were as depressed as you are, who had to be hospitalized, and who, years later, see it all as a distant dream. The hopelessness itself is a symptom, not reality. Hang onto that, please. And we can talk tomorrow if you want someone to talk to. Let me know, and I'll send you my number. I won't give advice. I'll just listen.