So sick of this.

[Siwsan]

5. Some mornings the only reason I get out of bed is to feed the kidcats

That's my sole motivation.

I do the housework but not nearly as often as I should. I have to go on a marathon cleaning binge before guests are expected.

And I know that most of my mental/physical lethargy is due to anxiety. When it flares, my mind goes into total 'what's the point' mode. In a couple of weeks my brother is leaving on a road trip to California and will be gone for about a month. At the same time, my niece and her husband are going to be in Montana for a week. My anxiety about that is already flaring. I'm not worried about something happening to me while they're gone. I'm worried about something happening to them. Especially my brother. I know I'll be a wreck until he's back, safe and sound.

AND I really need to schedule a 'wellness' visit with that callous APN I've been assigned. I think I'll schedule that for after my medication review. Hopefully this psychiatrist can get me on something that will ease the anxiety enough for me to function somewhat normally and get through an experience with that APN without having to spend the rest of the day curled up in bed.

So you see, you are definitely not alone.