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mopinko

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12. it's the helplessness you feel in a sitch like this.
Sat Aug 12, 2023, 09:30 AM
Aug 2023

i had a protracted rehab on my 2flat, bad contractors, no show contractors, and no rents. better part of last 2 yrs. but there’s nothing you can do but to wait, hope, and write the checks.
thankfully i know how this goes, and i made sure i got enough cash in my divorce to weather a storm like this. but it was barely enough.
i love that bldg, love my urban farm. i did the right thing- invested in it, improved it. absent the plague, it’s a great decision. but…
it’s a slow rolling going broke, and it just sucked me almost all the way down. even knowing it would all be fine in the end, which it was. esp the 2nd floor is just a gorgeous apt, and i have good tenants that are so happy to have it.

so many days all i could do was sit w it. and ruminate about what i was doing that was causing this bullshit. so much of it seemed to boil down to men who didnt want to work for a feisty old lady.

if i didnt have my dogs to hang onto, i dont think i would have made it through the last few yrs. my puppy is 10 mos old now, and starting to b a dog. she’s less of a weight in the back of my mind all day- does she need to go out? how long has she been in the crate? is it time to feed her? at this point, she’s finally just 1 of the pack.
she’s just the best and drags me toward being a better person. drags me outside on beautiful days. gets me to sit in the backyard and listen to the birds. gets me to take walks.
i promised her i’d do my best to be the person a pup like her deserves. i fall short often, but i still try.

on a decent path atm. health is settling down, been doing enough yoga that i notice the extra strength. finally got back into the healthcare system after all my docs retired and i had to b a new patient again. grr. still need to get w a new rheumie, but my new pcp assures me that both my shogrens, and my post-viral bullshit are better understood and taken more srsly than even a few yrs ago. at least we learned some shit in the plague.

my life has always been a roller coaster, but i think the worst part of being old is having to wonder if this valley is the last.


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Ty XanaDUer2 Aug 2023 #4
Time or a GoFundMe 3Hotdogs Aug 2023 #2
You know XanaDUer2 Aug 2023 #3
I am so sorry. LoisB Aug 2023 #5
TY very much XanaDUer2 Aug 2023 #6
I don't understand Medicare IbogaProject Aug 2023 #7
Thank you XanaDUer2 Aug 2023 #8
this is why mopinko Aug 2023 #11
We have to cover everyone IbogaProject Aug 2023 #13
not arguing universal care. arguing m4a isnt it. mopinko Aug 2023 #14
Hugggggggs. I wish that I had some helpful words or advice. I hope things niyad Aug 2023 #9
TY, niyad XanaDUer2 Aug 2023 #10
it's the helplessness you feel in a sitch like this. mopinko Aug 2023 #12
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