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Sunriser13

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14. Somewhere, yes.

Sun Apr 19, 2020, 05:44 PM

Apr 2020

There are millions of Americans, who suffer just like you. Let your suffering and lonliness open your heart to extending loving kindness to others who suffer.

And this is only one part of why my heart continues to break. I can't help anyone. I often can't walk across the room without losing breath. It takes a plan to go to the mailbox, taking my phone with me and a stick for balance, and breathing down the chest pain when I get back.

A feeling of hopelessness, helplessness, and negativity surrounds my psyche. It is black and red and even white-hot, zig-zagging even as a lightning bolt throws itself at its foe. But there is no foe. The foe is me.

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I'm so tired. May I talk? [View all] Sunriser13 Apr 2020 OP

What, in life, gives you the most pleasure? ZZenith Apr 2020 #1

The cats. Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #7

I'm glad you have them. ZZenith Apr 2020 #10

My heart goes out to you, my dear Sunriser13... CaliforniaPeggy Apr 2020 #2

Thank you, Peggy. Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #9

I'm sorry to hear about all this. I wish there was something I could do. onecent Apr 2020 #3

Thank you! Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #11

Sorry things have been so ... sucky ... and for the loss of your soulmate ... mr_lebowski Apr 2020 #4

I've given myself migraines trying to figure out how to do that! Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #12

There is a way out of your lonliness and misery vlyons Apr 2020 #5

Somewhere, yes. Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #14

You need to see a cardiologist vlyons Apr 2020 #32

I know I do. Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #40

The ER hospital will have a cardiologist on staff vlyons Apr 2020 #46

No words, sending a virtual hug your way. LiberalBrooke Apr 2020 #6

Thanks. Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #15

I am so sorry to hear what you have been through, and going through..to be on your own asiliveandbreathe Apr 2020 #8

Trying to brave a reach Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #17

It may be hard but just think how much better you will feel reaching out,,you have been there for asiliveandbreathe Apr 2020 #20

I wish I could make your life better somehow. Make you feel less alone. LiberalLoner Apr 2020 #13

I sincerely thank you. Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #36

How are you feeling today? I was thinking of you. LiberalLoner Apr 2020 #47

I'm here. Better... Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #48

Oh I love Penzey spices! LiberalLoner Apr 2020 #49

Oh, yeah! Forgot about sugar! Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #50

Hi! Hope you are feeling okay today! LiberalLoner Apr 2020 #52

No tornado, no tornado, no tornado! Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #53

Oh gosh thank you, I'm sorry I didn't answer sooner, LiberalLoner Apr 2020 #54

that was me last year, fersher. mopinko Apr 2020 #16

Don't you just wish we could all get together for a group hug..I am so impressed with your message asiliveandbreathe Apr 2020 #22

thx honey. so happy to have this tale to tell. mopinko Apr 2020 #39

Hugs and squishes! Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #43

I understand. Thank you for sharing. Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #25

well, you just go ahead. mopinko Apr 2020 #38

Lack of family can be both a curse and a blessing. Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #41

oh my. mopinko Apr 2020 #42

Hoping the coming spring and summer days will bring you the opportunity No Vested Interest Apr 2020 #18

This is a very late response, I needed to find something. Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #37

You did well, sunriser, indeed finding the perfect picture... No Vested Interest Apr 2020 #45

So sorry to hear, Sunriser. 😢 SheltieLover Apr 2020 #19

Will be checking out your links! Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #27

Yaaaay! SheltieLover Apr 2020 #28

Free course: "J is for Journal" (Dr. Pennebaker) SheltieLover Apr 2020 #21

Great suggestions Kitchari Apr 2020 #23

TY. 😊 SheltieLover Apr 2020 #29

Agree Kitchari Apr 2020 #30

Absolutely! SheltieLover Apr 2020 #34

Just a word of support and hope for you Kitchari Apr 2020 #24

I'm so sorry vercetti2021 Apr 2020 #26

Much hug - thank you. Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #31

Exactly vercetti2021 Apr 2020 #33

I just pilled my cat... I think. Sunriser13 Apr 2020 #35

oh god. ferrealz. mopinko Apr 2020 #44

No reason for you to get it, hon. cwydro Apr 2020 #51

Yes the isolation and hibernation is daunting bucolic_frolic Apr 2020 #55