New to this group, hi, I'm an Adult Child of an Alcoholic.

[Myrina]

I realized it - it hit me over the head in therapy - & have been working through it for about 5 years now. I've been on my own since I was 17 & have alot of life-bumps & bruises to show for it.

Question for every/any one: Do you find it difficult to make decisions and stick to them?
I seem to be almost paralyzed when life situations arise that I need to respond to, to the point where I've pretty much abandoned everything that would cause me to have to make decisions more difficult than 'what do I need for groceries' and 'what do I want to watch tonight' ? I can't plan long-term at all, and it's resulted in a 46-year old me that doesn't resemble what the 17-year old me imagined in the least. "Well, how did I get here?"

I try to make the pro/con list in cases of big decisions (jobs, a new pet, rent vs. buy etc) but regardless of which way I ultimately decide, I always regret my decision and end up kicking myself for weeks/months afterwards and often try for a do-over (which in most cases can't happen).

For example: I am in a mind-numbing IT contract job that I didn't want ke in the first place but felt pressured to take because "the company really wanted me". I've hated EVERY minute of it - its a horrible fit & all of my real skills are atrophying. 3 weeks ago, a job opportunity fell out of the sky - more money, contract-to-hire, and I could have pretty much done it in my sleep. The recruiter told me I was the lead candidate going in, and had an offer within 72 hours of the interview. And I turned it down. No rational reason why, and now of course I regret it.

I'd appreciate anyone's input, I fear that I'm painting myself into a corner with this inability to make better/more confident decisions & learn to not regret everything I get into.

Thanks!