I had an experience last night that left me questioning myself.

[1WorldHope]

I called my step brother, who I adore, because I knew he would appreciate the South Park episode. But he has become a hermit. He doesn't have or use the Internet, no cable TV, and he moved back to the tiny town he was born in. He appreciated the humor but as I was trying to think of some way he could see it himself and how much humor he is missing I should have noticed his tone change. But no, I kept talking, assuming that because he can see what an ass the orange Nazi is that he must agree with my politics. I spoke about the people who don't vote at all and made the comment that some ppl have written them off, but my view is more, it's ok you were wrong but yay now you see the light. He said he has never voted, (I didn't realize that) and that it doesn't matter which side wins the outcome is the same. I started to argue that most times that probably had been pretty true. But not this time. This time he was going to completely destroy every program and service we have worked for. He said it didn't matter and he was tired and wanted to hang up. Which we did. I felt like such an asshole for not reading the room better. I started to question myself. Am I just the polar opposite of MAGA but equally as off putting? Am I a sucker for spending all of my time worrying over how to stop the orange one? It has taken over way too much time in my life. I feel like we are in a war for democracy, at the same time feeling helpless to stop it. Am I the fool who can't see the light? Could I just forget it all and go on with my life as if there was nothing I can do to change anything and find a damn hobby? Does anyone else ever feel this way?