I Request that No One Recommend nor Reply to this Post Series-Part 1
There is no need to panic truly. But things have gotten to the point where I have to say something, because this is all so indirect and intangible and it looks like so many things breaking at the same time with very few people sounding the alarms in the right way and those are all people like me, who are more or less directly or indirectly in the path of a juggernaut of stupidity with no relief in sight.
A war of economic attrition with rarer forays of violent brutality is what I am worried about. But the former increases the odds of the latter.
A super secure bunker or a billionaire sugar daddy and doxxing attacks on unpopular people like myself, could work out for you, in which case some people in there will ensure that no matter how much you try to destroy information by pretending everything is a deepfake and ai
This is not kayfabe or insanity. I wish I could go and work. I have a sometimes malicious antagonist inside my own head at least who mocks me incessantly when I engage with society in any way that is not dullest routine. So you can be sure I take no pleasure in this foul task.
I infuse it with personality and humor only as needed to communicate what can seem like threadbare insights (that would be the malicious antagonist inside my head I referred to)
Worse, my hope is that after some writing that makes my heart pound as it so uncharacteristic (I hate unnatural animal behavior), I can return to the comfort of my own research and all I will remember soon (as this is so unpleasant a chore for someone of my type) is some melodramatic and vague screed online (the antagonist inside my head is more vicious than any other. Nature intended me to be a dull woman who does dull things and I protest the avalanche of self-serving, inane, opportunistic human stupidity with occasional forays into equally senseless undirected malice, that has reached a crescendo of mindboggling all sided human stupidity that tries to then blame some clunky “ai” and “agents” - can’t fool all the people all the time you dash dash dashes..who stuffed those stupid “smart things” in everywhere destroying all accountability and regulation? You guys are unbelievable..Seriously man..You are a totally amateur type of evil.
But this transactional exploitation of the Idiocracy has already lead to the death of one person who meant the world to me - my mom. She had an excellent oncologist. He is my oncologist, because he is one of the few people I trust completely.
And don’t stalk me or him..idiots. You will be mocked mercilessly if uoi
I don’t exist in a safe secure corridor. I have to guard my anonmity and life with dubious 🙄 exercises like these that I can only perform when I
glum enough
It is not depression. This society is depressingly stupid with pathetic attempts at malice, but being a jester is a scary position when dealing with a goliath of muscle and stupidity that can smack one down
But I am not a joke person and while I come up with tragicomic strategies for dealing with whatever a kraken is like concluding that while Sundar Pichai, Elon Musk and Jeff Bezos are all candidates for the kraken, Pichai might be low hanging fruit, not because of racism so much as..
I post here and am genuinely grateful to EarlG who I support fully and who can always count on such mediocre kraken skills as even I can try to muster up. And I trust him enough to permit me
I use this board because I trust EarlG/Skinner and elad not the Democratic party per se. As a formerly publicly funded
And as I have no intention of ending up like poor Dr Fauci who was altogether too respectable to deal with this, if my respectable strategy fails I plan to randomly throw arbitrary people to the kraken..Isn’t that the mood of the times?
But I never make false allegations etc. This stuff of using dry facts and statistics is not working out.
And only someone in animal survival mode as I am can even attempt to pull this off.
It is unthinkable to me that another person in my network faces further economic attrition or worse because of this mindnumbing stupidity. And I could not live with myself if it was because I either said something when I should not have or did not when I should have.
I live in a state of constant internal tension which I can handle with just enough breathing room. Most people who choose professions like science are very intense. You feel stupid all the time as is.
But it should not be the kind of stupidity where you are yelled at by blustering fascists or morons with no damn self awareness who keep shifting blame and hoping no one will ever say “cut it out”.
I have seen enough. I request your ears ladies and gentleman, whatever your race, gender, caste, creed, religion or even political affiliation if you are more or less honest and decent and care about anything but the most solipsistic, selfserving and senseless notion of survival.
Please do not keep trying to find me unless you have clearance. Because that is an alarming sign of poor data hygiene. Further it would completely invalidate my function as a citizen scientist and affect other people in my network you projecting, attention seeking morons. A few people know who I am and that is enough.
Do not..I repeat..do not pull this bullshit if you do not know what you are doing and thus far my sense is a subset may and a subset definitely don’t (I shall get into sparing no detail) and the rest need to at the very least get a message because I am starting to lose patience.
It is one thing to make genuine errors. I have made many. It is another to not care at all and be so deep in kayfabe you cannot tell what is real and what is not. Please try to redeem yourselves to the point where I can at least spare most of the morons provided this is never repeated again.
Do not try to pin the blame on someone else for your greed, opportunism and malice.
Not one thing
The only time my gloom lightens a bit is when I see the stuff you are still unbelievably trying to shill as “ai”. The ai winter cannot come a day too soon and without a cottage industry of Solaristics analyzing these things as all worthwhile research gets defunded.
I have lately been eying Josh Hawley in this blind orchestra of malicious nonsense as a Republican who unlike disgraceful people like Mitt Romney, Rand Paul, Marjorie Taylor Greene, has some genuinely populistic instincts if he can work in the bipartisan way with democrats to lower electricity costs.
I have no interest in even visiting the United States again. There is no point. I have already visited once and it was interesting, fun and useful.
I like Americans and I love Yasha Levine and Evgenia Kovda but I also really like Matt Stoller as much as I like Alec Karakatsanis and Briahna Joy Gray (;-/ someone with a version of my own penchant for getting kicked out of eveywhere).
But I try to not get kicked out at least of DU which is as reasonable a balance as I can find.
I notice everything as I try to avoid this nightmarish hellscape that has driven me to post online.
And I would not start my own blog and hope that if I ever overstep a line, EarlG sends me a blunt email telling me To pipe down. Or dumail from
MIRT or hatrack or rhiannon etc saying “silence jfz9580m).
I cannot manage without trustworthy colleagues in any realm I dubiously enter.
And I am very well to the left. And I love left wing media which is the one place where the moxios influence of corporations and politicians has not destroyed all reality. The left that balances as Nathan Robinson’s Current Affairs (minus Yasmin Nair and Musa Al Gharbi -sorry this is a burgeoning slow emergency not a moment for testing out disingenuous self serving curmudgeon personas as a replacement one has ton
If you cannot distinguish between Dr Fauci and climate scientists and your own bullshit on substack, you are not a real curmudgeon but one with as corporate friendly an effect as Lyman Stone etc. And it is a shame to lose the nicer curmudgeons like Bill Maher and Ricky Gervais for this type who embraces the culture war while pretending to be against. And always portraying science wmd
But I cannot any longer endure this stupidity from so many sides that I sit back slack jawed.
The stuff Hawley is doing is more useful than the broken theatrics and bullshit symbolism behind this broken model of immigration that is useful to grifters like Steve Bannon and Cato. Lowering electricity prices and banning TikTok are fighting the good fight whatever the EFF -a fraudulent and awful Silicon Valley astroturf group -says.
I was listening to the wags over at chapotraphouse and wondering how to put this so it is clear these are not vicious attacks so much as - this is too stupid and way less fun than
It has goaded me out of my untidy lair where I sit hating everything. And it isn’t a conversation dammit.
You are all collectively building an unlivable society and it is no longer possible to say the sanest thing is to shut up and work hard for jobs that no longer even exist, while someone thinks it is a bright idea to go and rile up a short tempered random like me who has no wish to speak truth to idiocy.
Come on!
Locally I have been looking at Ajit Doval, the national security chief in India because these rollouts look like a genuine security risk to me. He is the type of person my dad likes and my dad and I get along very well..a real world example of left-right cooperation inside the same house. He does watch a lot of rubbish on tv. For all that in a crisis he is pretty good. This isn’t one yet and I would rather it never ever became one for all the people in my local network - my doctors (though never any hospital admins
And if you are worried about being scapegoated unfairly I am your friend whoever you are. But if I cannot even ever have a say because I get kicked out by the dumbest and brashest people..
This stuff of throwing samples and yelling “This is rubbish! Garbage!” That is not real muscle. It means you are a terrible manager who blusters and generally an avoidable and awful human being. These bullying sycophants have too much power.
I loathe having to be all..I am Serious! But I can’t take anymore of this unbelievably stupid crap.
I am overtly on the left, but I can respect honest conservatism in the kinds of fields that left-leaning people like me rarely choose- military, police work, cyber
I choose and always will the dullest kind of publicly funded research. But I have seen your “ai” and that thing seriously should never be a reason to defund real research on climate change for this rot an ass like Elon Musk or those morons at Palantir push.
The same inefficient, inelegant wasteful investment while destroying millions of years of animal and human evolution.
No ai went into this writing. But a lot had to be systematically pushed back inside my head to bring it back to its baseline sanity.
I would argue to say Josh Hawley (the only republican who some serious errors aside) is not entirely engaged in pure kayfabe that as Peter Kalmus pointed out in Current Affairs not a right wing rag that a climate crisis that escalates the refugee crisis will further destabilize every country in the world and I don’t have a bunker Senator Hawley. So if people like you could work with democrats like Sheldon Whitehouse and appease your base I would be less worried as an Indian with no desire to migrate anywhere (though just for my learning I do like to travel - you do understand more about how everything is breaking if you do) this race to the bottom model of immigration is destabilising my own life here in India.
I request you not to alert on this post DU. I am not pushing Hawley. I back Elizabeth Warren, Bernie Sanders, Talarico etc.
Hawley is not wrong about TikTok. EarlG posted about electricity prices the other day and at least Hawley and Blumenthal
I have a lot to say because without it being the failt of any scientist, doctor or basically honest human I have met in the last 14 years, I have suffered loss after loss after loss…and now I can see more ahead and well Cassandra sounds like a really annoying person with no survival strategy.
I picture her as a kind of annoying knowitall.
All I am saying is that as of now I have never had to throw total randoms under the bus unless this counts:
Hey Hennessy, your OnlyFans page is rubbish! It is garbage! Do something you jerk. If a prolific snoop like you doesn’t know how to help who does? Hat tip to a feminist I admire a lot as opposed to the lameass girlboss- Evgenia Kovda 
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I used to think I hated John Hennessy. And then I saw a video of him and realized that he is not actually a bad guy. Unlike all these counterfeit nerds who are actually tabloid friendly creeps with no gravitas, Hennessy is I suspect is not a bad guy.
Of him at least I can actually buy that okay this guy really has no clue how humans think except for the 2 million X, I work 1 billion hours a week and have no sense of humor producers balanced out by various sycophants with some worried humans with both specialized and general intelligence in his orbit.
I would not talk to academic elite except my mentors and best friends and I avoid even them these days and
The last I was this worried..
Common Hennessy..Earth to man.
Sighs…
Something needs to be stopped and we all have to work together to exactly find it and end it with only the truly maliciously self serving blamed, the truly blundering and brash getting defunded (think Harjinder Singh-I have never met anyone like that in my time in the US. I left the US in 2014 for the last time).
Please stop destroying worthwhile things for garbage like those data centres.
And stop calling me crazy or childish. It fucking pisses me off. I get to be profane and like this!
I have the right to not see endless stupidity all the time.
The awesome Andy Nikiforuk and Yasha Levine who get how to allot left right blame as opposed to self serving embrace of Mitt Romney, are the reasons I have brain cells.
Hey you demon Hennessy..Like in The Good Place I want a pact with a demon and he is the best quality demon I have seen.
Do I seem disrespectful or like a standup comic you..you…damn reallife Sheldon Cooper. Damn you Hennessy..you dope.
Lina Khan is not a dope. You are a dope with your duuuuuur mouthbreathing forays into human behavior. Pony up man! This is believe it or not a compliment from a big tech hater.
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To figure out who I am during an existential crisis and I came to the conclusion over and over that there is no getting away with it that I am a bit of an ass…
Not in any malignant or ideally inconsiderate way, but I have lots of strong opinions, stubborn rules and
But unless you are a billionaire or one of the 50 or so people I bash in these posts for being public figures I feel broke reality for many people and most outrageously for jfz9580m in whose advancement and well-being I take an inordinate amount of interest.
But the point is we are all passionate people in this community and I would never hurt anyone’s feelings deliberately. I respect and appreciate each one of yoi despite our differences as fellow human animals navigating this foul hellscape. And broadly most humans as long as crowded hellscapes are shunted away from my own solitary existence.
Ironically I have to be more open and social (hopefully temporarily) to retreat to my lair and live out my life quietly.
I truly used to try to keep my drivel to myself, but then it all became really complicated and now I get it. I got shoved out of some places and well I am still indignant about some of it. But one reason I hate move fast and break shit is the break shit part. You can move fast as long as you don’t break shit or steal from me except in a way I would consider Jean Val Jean adjacent as a one-off. But not like a creepy libertarian pirate herded mob..
But my point is you are always my guest to take action with expertise or more knowledge to keep jfz9580m from being a nuisance as I would hate to do that.
That aside I figure if one is a bit of an ass one might as well use it efficiently to shove some creeps around a bit. I take full responsibility for my asinine ways..
I try my best with the strange relationship I have with information by now, guessing a bunch and using the past to figure out how to thwart those creeps..
It is unbeautiful in the extreme. But this media environment and its fraudulent lies and deceptions are goading me to pushback till I can extricate myself from crap tech and all the wrong humans and go on my way with my secure from junk.
A scientific object lesson on the limits to growth in the microcosm I inhabit with adequate real security rather than a hyper secure, creepy, unnatural cult that breaks the web of life, real ecosystems and organic human social webs with clunky tech, is my goal.
But as I grope throw the dark, not being dumbass ai, I always need correction and feedback from my friends and colleagues and neighbors!
Narrative exposition is a ways away.
Strange experiment ;-/. Like Fox News, I report, you decide!
I tried to get this bloody Ulysses under control but it kept getting away from me.
I want to wrap it and send various threats (mild), condolences and solidarity..mostly the threats but it takes on a damn life of its own.
Its all human!!!!! And that is not a case for ai!
Its a case for someone doing something about something somehow..
I have to think..
The gist was, I am not ..No creeps and junk growth
Damn you all..you make an unlivable society
It is not an early warning system dammit! Nor comedy hour damn! I seriously have to throw everything out and stand all my grounds (including that, I am fond of America, but I am never again coming there, but you affect society and have a lot of creepy Indian businessmen and your immigration system is broken and officially on the cusp of driving a global race to the bottom), while making various semi-joking points to ward off kraken (?) here, there and everywhere..
What did I do to any kraken beyond what some(horrible humans) might consider an obscene amount of marijuana and what I consider just the right amount to endure the rest of you damn lemmings..
And I have to bash creeps, shoo away gadflies, and potentially appease (gulp) bristling, non-creepy male types with short fuses..eek
And still not concede..Jt is my stuff..not yours
And you are all too daft and dishonesty
And your ai..that thing…I see it..I think.
If that is your ai, that thing shouldn’t exist..
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EarlG will understand and forgive me for a final series of brutally honest posts after which I am gone. Or that is my daily hope.
I am hidebound to the point of stupidity sometimes.
Maybe this is a time
At some point soon I do have to leave even DU permanently because this is not my normal function and if my normal function as a regular (not bowel movements, but hard science..humor ;-/ to make various unpalatable truths and truthiness go down better without dilution).
It would anti-climactic to hang around and continue to make super awesome jokes I fully back about throwing all sorts of random douchebags to whatever a kraken is 🤭, but I do have to go back to my real life.
But I can no longer pretend to be a random poster. Over the rest of the next week or two I will write up everything I have to say and then I am gone to thwart, foil and confront ;-/ various creeps/frauds and such irl..lol..well that is the hope.
Then if I ever do post on DU, it should be worth it for EarlG, not a drag. I don’t think this is a drag.
I am sensitive and I tend to get driven away fast by male creepiness or a sense that I am a nuisance. But without that, to say stuff that people with a stake or those who cannot say much (but are genuinely nice people..I am not sure I can do much beyond ..hang in there ;-/. Yasha said it to me long back).
Sorry..I have found my inner voice and in general I agree with any human who agrees that it should be silenced as a rule. One of our family jokes (we are or were a close knit and private family of three people -mom dad and I- i never expected to post this online and I am only doing it now to generally mock and ridicule and trash everything).
Because this was and is filled with self serving opportunism..I thought of Hennessy and started laughing 🤭..anyway..where was I? No..For one of those cree..people you could do worse than Hennessy. I don’t think Hennessy is a creep.
He is my friend!!!! No I really don’t think he is a creep or at least I would be shocked. He seems a little thick-headed but well..computer guy..
It is a super idea to recruit me by the way into these sleazy things. Except the dirtbag left of the Yasha Levine/Nathan Robinson/Chris Ketcham/Evgenia Kovda type I cannot think of anyone who would consider it a good idea to recruit me into these things.
Which means I end up getting accidentally KO by the communication effort…
Anyway, as a child I was taken to a concert and my mom had to whisk me out for pointing and saying “Bow-bow” ;-/. I was kind of a horrible child.
History clearly repeats itself.
But I posted here out of genuine respect for and faith in EarlG/elad and Skinner and I owe them honesty as I wind up and move on. And I respect other DUers. All of them or at any rate I would be shocked if they weren’t anything but the usual squabbling left or the best type of effort wrt bot control. Shoutout to me buddies Rhiannon and Duppers.
So I am not a cynical troll (Hennessy and all the kraken food may disagree - hey better them than me..I am an expert survivalist!).
It is just funny..I remember years of mechanical posts that in no way had any connection with how I think.
But Trump 2.0 and the genuinely positive influence of Yasha Levine/Evgenia Kovda/Andy Nikiforuk/Chris Ketcham/Nandita Bajaj/Adam Becker/Nathan Robinson/Troy Farah/Marina Bolotnikova/Alex Skopic/Ed Zitron/Nicholas Carr/Matt Stoller/Alec Karakatsanis/Clayton Dalton/Chuck Palahniuk/Briahna Joy Gray/Chauncey DeVega/Paul & Anne Ehrlich/Rodolfo Dirzo/most of Current Affairs/Jon Sanbonmatsu/Bill Maher (he donates to animal rights causes! This media environment has driven him insane! Come back to the light Bill! The IDW is clearly kraken food!)/Ricky Gervais (I sympathize with much nicer curmudgeons who get alienated from the left by the vociferousness of all the specimens of insincere kraken food out there)/Deb Olin Unferth/Andrew O’Hehir/Amanda Marcotte/Jill Filipovic/Anand Giridhardas/John Naughton/Timnit Gebru/Emily Bender/Tim Wu/Shoshana Zuboff/Phillip Agre/Peter Putnam/Yan Lecun/Josh Silberg/Ryan Williams/Plork Blogspot
etc have restored me to my old self from circa July 2011, such as it was.
I like lists! I may have a disease! I go a bit overboard when I make lists! Well I do engage in crowd control (the devoid of imagination were just kicked out in my mental gallery for asking “is that a delusion?” Off with their heads!), but I also do get overwhelmed wishing I could boost a very large number of people truly for no reaason beyond..eh..fellow sufferer in this hellscape…yeah.
But I have some super strict rules: No creeps. That is a zero tolerance zone. I never went on a date with Asiz Ansari or worked for Matt Lauer.
An unprofessional relationship with any male is unthinkable.
so I ..I do not understand Me Too issues of that kind. Those are for someone else to worry about.
But well as this goes on..bad jokes or profanity ;-/..Creeps are banned. No creeps.
But even Derek Black changed. Given a media environment that actively fosters bigotry and hate from all sides, I post to lower the temperature where it is not creeps or the various samples of kraken food I offer up (not an AirTel offer because AirTel is just my phone company not my bestest friend ever. It was them or Jio and I fucking hate Ambani. His son’s wildlife refuge is a disgrace. Gold toilets are for kraken food. And to have a wedding that costs 17000 or was it 170000 times the average Indian’s annual salary, in a country this poor as noxious economists such as ..oh well..some overfed pig sitting in the US and talking about “Freebies for the poor”
That is disgusting. A much nicer economist from JNU said that helping the poorest of the poor is not a freebie.
And I am worried about India going this same brainless path. And with the wrong kinds of business minded NRIs making things worse
To the point where I have started thinking about Josh Hawley’s pest control functions after reading a Time Magazine article last year by Stephen S Hall on how to appreciate snakes this earth day
lol..No..I genuinely like snakes..That was a compliment.
EarlG knows I would never use DU wrong. Other DUers would understand it, even with our differences, if I explained that I have seen things that are mindboggling stupid and need to say some things. Whether you are JI7, hlth2b, SocialDemocrat61, irisblue etc or any DUer..this is not a call out. You may not have seen as many stupid things as I have and so you may not have my perspective. I am not better than you or anyone and I am not being greasily manipulative because only stupid people insult other people’s intelligence with such gambits. I never call out other DUers or broadly anyone but the specific kraken food. Live by the sword, die the sword. I am an openly anon coward 🤭
But as a veteran of friendly fire more than unfriendly fire back when there were any faces and not just clunky machines (I hate machines like these..more on that later), I challenge anyone out there on this- I have seen more stupidity than many many others and you can’t take my crown away from me!
It is perception too..I attribute things to what has been the bane of my life, stupidity more than malice. If you have seen more genuine malice, I concede that spot to you. And malice exists. In fact I will be talking about malice a lot.
But my understanding by now of how malice actually works is ..anyway
If I am going to do this, I will give it as sincere an effort as I can.
Anyway, years ago as I said, I was put in this position where as someone who knows exactly who they are, but is a bit hazy on specifics, I got confronted with the question- _”who am I? Why do I think this way or that? Lastly, how?”
I am getting clearer answers to the first two. The last remains elusive. My ex who likes to rib me (not Adam’s rib..like tease) says it is generally a bad idea to give me ideas and I agree with that.
A very horrible man called me a child early Dec 2011 and I have not forgiven that! 🫵💀🏴☠️☠️.
No..he wasn’t horrible. He was another scientist whose patience was wearing thin and I can understand why now and as a gesture of genuine support I am considering befriending Josh Hawley, who I hope has a sense of humor. I like snakes!
This is also a warning I suppose. I am posting this not in violation of DU’s TOS but as an honest take on how people in survival mode think.
Because I do not want this race to the bottom that is global migration to degrade my home in India.
I am never migrating anywhere, though I have not ruled out visiting Western Europe just to learn more science and see more of the world, but only democracies where I don’t need a secure corridor to not run the risk of harassment.
I choose life in the real with its risks, but I never accept a state worse than the previous one seeing as I am not in a war zone but a dull, sleepy little Podunk town which I hope stays rhe same over this type of growth.
I am also considering sending a DU friend request to Ajit Doval. Eeek..My dad likes him and I am worried about security if things continue in this way.
A uniquely human and honest insight and guess is I suspect better than clunky machine predictions. My brain which has protective alleles against schizophrenia I suspect has millions of years of evolution behind it.
What does that piece of clunk GPT have? Stolen labor and infliction of its Freeze-Fawn-Bore and apophenia?
Fight and flight was all me ;-/. More truthy than truth but with an avalanche of truthiness from malicious parties with no serious checks and this correctly but unfortunately meticulous approach of real scientists and doctors and their careful communication, ol’ jfz9580m has to wade into these waters ensuring that not one false note creeps in.
ChatGPT faugh! Nastikoff Bah..I spit me off Nastikoff. That was PG Wodehouse. I attribute unlike that clunky piece of crap.
I think I have seen that thing’s ai now. Yeah..
I will need expert help to throw it out or resolve this with no compromise beyond my new bestest friends-Ajit Doval, Josh Hawley and Hennessy.
No..I didn’t mean that disrespectfully.
Hennessy and me (English!!!!Google Translate sucks! Use DeepL instead! European Union PSA!!!) are best friends. Pony up you old snoop! Name names damn you. But well this is a dicey situation and there is no need for panic as my dad told me to think of crises.
Kayfabe would be a crisis. It is human brain rot to not have a worldview that is neither paranoid conspiracy nor kayfabe and athletics.
I am not a Serious Person..I tried those personas all my life and they didn’t work. The jester with enough muscle to 💪 destroy any bullies or creeps, real or imaginary or worse as likelier, fools who break things by moving too fast or too slow but never just right, worry me.
In 2026, finally I have a better understanding of sciences too complex for me to truly grasp that I am doing this.
I would recommend Phillip Ball’s latest piece in Quanta Magazine. This trollish (based on what I read) antagonist Bobby Azarian, talks about apeirophobia..,Fear of infinity. No it is fear of stupidity.
Everything in nature is interlinked and conservation/stop signals are the hallmark of healthy growth. I read about Tejas Thackeray in The Week and immediately liked the guy.
Ed Zitron also gets it.
This is inanity and insanity..superabundance, infinite growth and it masks an ugly truth that most of the planet and animal life in factory farms are familiar with and now poor old Tom Massie who was booted out of this imaginary gallery for my bestestest friend Josh Hawley..I used to find Hawley terrifying, but he is not a fool. To at this moment in time back corporations and junk ai and China/Russia not humans in the US or India is a mug’s game.
I love Yasha Levine and Evgenia Kovda who are too intelligent to need this explained anymore than EarlG needs to stalk me to ensure I am not a russian bot or Ajit Doval needs to use Pegasus to ensure I am not a Pakistani plant (though I do love Lina Khan and my most helpful shrink, who prescribed Adderall was from somewhere in the middle east ..).
I am uneasy in my mind, but ;-/. As a citizen scientist fighting against stupidity on steroids..last April 20, 2025, a random date with no meaning whatsover (I love Andrew O’Hehir!! 🤭
. Seriously intelligence-the real thing not a sad Grok or DeepMind IQ test (Yan Lecun is cool! This would have chilled my blood..Getting fresh with Yan Lecun or Steve Chu and genuinely respectable scientists.. sorry..the kraken food are kraken food for a reason and none of this is anything but satire. All pearl clutchers and violent types are banished).
Anyway where was I? At this point I really should read Ulysses. Anyway I was a bit disoriented and trying to figure out wth is going and strained by Kleptocratic pile ons who think people will be defined passively by that pile of kraken food adjacent to my bestestestestestesttest friend Hennessy, who pretended I have a mental illness
With genuine apologies to my fellow DUer JI7 who seems like a really nice person, but who has different takes sometimes on people Mitt Romney or Bill Gates, who I just see as kraken food. We have different experiences and I stand by mine. But it is never an obnoxious callout. That is being a jerk and except a relatively small lost
One of my rules is: Never attack real people over mere differences of opinion. And while many DUers have different views, I would never attack or disrespect anyone on DU, because I am not running for office or a media thing and in the real
world civility is non-optional for me unless something crossed a boundary indirectly or directky which has made me categorize you as kraken food.
The bar is already really low: No creeps, no charlatans, no humans with no self awareness, no attacks on ol’ jfz9580m (what kind of masochist would choose that irl?), no opportunism, NO transactionalism (this is not a sweatshop or marketplace for flesh..sounds a bit biblical ;-/. The Bible has some good bits as the chick in Georgette Heyer’s A Blunt Instrument says. I liked all the smiting parts. I want to smit Shyam Palantir Creep Sankar and Kush Desai 🤭! because NO stupidity.
Errors, assholes, jerks I am already resigned to.
But if anyone is going to be kraken food (as Denis in Sunny in Philly said..that’s how those guys talk! Unleash the kraken..what kraken? Where? Why? I will be the kraken you jerks and pick off the lowest hanging fruit whom even I can defeat in a popularity or general intelligence contest) let it be those guys.
Mitt Romney and his “make life so miserable for immigrants they self-deport”..what kind of asshole talks like that? That was the year I left, but I had to come back to abandon my Greencard formally since I lost it..I feel like I should qualify for an Adderall presc honestly (the only truly self-serving insertion. I have rights! Fuck clarity and light pollution..absent any proof beyond “I want all of everyone’s space!” Even if I have to invent a mental health epidemic in order to do so ignoring all the simple reasons why corporations in Americans and the world over and destroying human health in every way possible.
It is not a mental illness or being anti-psychiatry or analogous to being anti-vaccine or a paranoid conspiracy theorist to see a shameless conflict of interest when a subset of the Google and Facebook creeps backing this foul surveillance state for the past 15 years, actually work with the worst people in mental health.
Nobody needs bloody Lybrate. My medical mj company I connect with via WhatsApp has done more
While Hennessy is a purely imaginary friend, thanks to Yan Lecun, I have friendlier feelings towards Facebook though Zuckerberg should be fed to wolves. He better watch it. He is not yet kraken food though his moll didn’t make the cut to fed to wolves
Hey this isn’t insipid hour. Look at even poor Tom Massie a total random I read about on DU. Oh yeah Tegmark is also kraken food. I am already safe.
Kraken food should just be mocked. But even Nathan Robinson says one can mock people!
Unfortunately, Yasmin Nair who lived by the sword has died by the sword for being a bullying jerk.
A perfunctory reference to “brown” people cannot conceal it when you really don’t actually give a shit and sharpen your claws on other people fecklessly.
An odd statement coming from me? Not really. Not one person in this is casually in there. Some of these people truly strike me as people making a fatuous and poisonous media environment far far worse.
Being left is about having a heart not just mockery of fake “big hearted” left with the fake curmudgeon persona. And these guys are turning it into a football match while even Josh Hawley..
The sheer amount of male and conservative outreach
And if you have had a hard time in any recent war or generally are having a hard time, I can assure you that within the ability (admittedly strained) I have had, I have honestly cared.
But I have a huge objection to the Beverley D’Angelos of the world as much as the fake Stanford curmudgeon “Sensible Person” of the Manhattan Institute (kraken food)
You seem to enjoy feeding people to kraken all too much jfz9580m. No I enjoy it the appropriate amount. As various extravagantly sensible Stanford girlboss types I have read in The Guardian talk about how one should neither be too much of a kraken chef nor too little..but just right!
(Speaking of which Emily Bender should sue The NY Mag as should Timnit Gebru The Wired for writing about women in difficult positions as thoughtlessly and solipsistically as possible).
The NYT loathesome as it is nailed Fei Fei Li. And David Golumbia was correct about Joy Buolamwini.
It occurs to me I will have to balance my real work with this by learning when to respond after this information swop. And it will be a good sign more than not when I am gone entirely..smeared out and inexact, but way less clunky than shitty ai.
Anyway, back then I didn’t know where whatever key to who I am and what my function in society was. Most random people do not have a fully articulated version of their world view, especially when they vaguely generally know that all this looks like a terrible idea but would be taken aback if asked offhand why and how.
I had to desperately scan what exists out there as mainstream and wondered which of these generally dishonest and insincere or controversial in the worst damn ways position is least loathesome.
Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert whose influence I can now ummmmm assimilate to address this in the only decent and realistic way it could have ended. Man I hope I can stay anonymous..
My colleagues and doctors are genuinely decent and I support all of them. But they are scientists and doctors. This shit is not really their scene because they are not influencers. They have no kayfabe and live in the real which is where I am headed to stick it to the creeps in some more viable way while leaving enough indication about seriously not to mess with me.
No. I don’t know how to say it without sounding ridiculous…But it is seriously a bad idea to mess with me because I am not a fool..I just thought everyone else was and it seemed pointless to try to cut through the kayfabe and failure to grasp when this ridiculous and alarming society accidentally results in someone who truly only exists in the real stumbling into this almost entirely disingenuous and fraudulent virtual world built by people where the best option is my dear pal Hennessy 🤭. By the time one is dreaming of Josh Hawley and even scanning The damn Federalist to figure out who one could be in this nightmare reality (The answer is not Zoolander! That’s self loathing! I found the answer in The Federalist of all places..I would be in the same category as the woman whose mom died during covid and who is now correctly mad that Andrew Cuomo has a radio show).
I realize now that my last mentor had a very subtle sense of humor. That is not sycophantic because I called him various unfair names over the years.
They were unfair. I am only belatedly developing subtlety overtly.
As a young, pompous and self serious postdoc, when he told me that I should stay and work in this lame hell because he could put me in touch with the most important people in the world, I was a bit nonplussed.
On the one hand, this guy has to realize at least by now that I am kind of a lousy postdoc. Why would anyone important in science not be horrified at this alarming specimen of human scientist being delivered up to them sans a clear explanation?
On the flip side, if he means important in a non-science context, aren’t those people in general kraken food and cannon fodder? At least in any Straw Dogs situation..🤭…It was clearly the latter.
I misjudged him. He is crazy, but he is not and never was any kind of sellout, but a fellow traveller in observing human stupidity at scale.
Phew. Can’t manage without complete faith in my scientific network. Man..I hope they are okay.
I am best friends with Josh Hawley! No? No..It turns out that Josh Hawley could have a respectable jerk control function in my estimation in spite of two serious errors.
Come on Sen Hawley..be the best person of your type. I am an unabashed leftist, but of your insincere and shameless party, you strike me as closer to having some populist instincts than most.
The electric prices, the ban on tiktok, snap funding (strange metaphor there about science funding..sad for what used to be a leader and should not lose out to China.)
I am never coming back to the US Sen Hawley..In that respect, I am closer to Indian kraken than kraken food which doesn’t seem to be getting through to these bullying morons. I don’t like being pushed around and scapegoated by people to my right who pretend to care.
But what science I learnt, I learnt in excellent NIH funded labs with no corporate ties. And Tom Massie is kraken food. ;-/.
I operate on strict conservation principles. You gain a Hawley, you throw a Massie to kraken for kayfabe and dismissing climate change.
I dreamt of Elon Musk last night..Yeah no.
The Indian govt will get a lot of grief from me if Musk, Shalab Kumar and Vincent Palathingal (a loathesome Perilaus candidate) continue to destroy my livelihood and home with other local creeps..
But anyway back to my mentor saying he could
I was braindamaged already and wondered if he was crazy and dutifully katfabed about how “Why would I want to meet someone important. I am an honest postdoc!”
Which in retrospect is exactly the kind of bullshit that some douche who does want to do all that would say. Usually it is these types who say “I will never sell out!” who do it first.
My actual reaction was more along the lines of well “okay I know I am a kind of lousy postdoc..but this seems excessively draconian. Wow Type A people are way crazier than I ever realized. These guys are a nightmare. There is ambition and there is being this damn crazy.”
But well..Type As are people too! Type A rights!🤭
I was legitimately a pretty ..well okay there I start to get pissed off..Well you know..i really did make a more than commensurate effort for any investment these shitty societies made in me ;-/.
I speak truth to idiocy!
I really truly did try and will, but not this mechanically ignoring how fucking stupid this is and I earned the right to be profane.
So now I don’t mind “talking” to important people because it is fun to troll Hennessy on my way out. Tell me what it is you snoop! Your OnlyFans page is rubbish! Its garbage! *throws samples at Hennessy*
That is seriously the worst type ot mentoring. But some sort of snoopy and draconian police state mandated by a series of douchey surveillance capitalists is worse 🤭. I mean thank goodness it was the Google/Microsoft/Facebook creeps then. It is Musk and Palantir now..
In my defence, there are reasons I was a lousy postdoc. I was defrauded by an EECS dept in 2000 to the tune of some 25-35k when I first got into grad school at an elite institution in the US.
I couldn’t get then that if that kind of tuition is taken from someone in the Global South, you kinda have more of an obligation as a department to ensure that the person (Hiya Dman!!! My “advisor”) gets some real guidance and doesn’t just flail about. That was my first brush with the privatization of education in the US and is still the worst example of it.
I am never migrating anywhere. I may or may not visit
But this is bullshit. The US model of immigration is beyond broken. And worse it is starting to acquire the sleazy and cynical vote bank politics of India. The Harjinder Singh case
And that is a shit deal above all for immigrants. Because unless you are deluded enough to buy into the nightmarish GOP thing, there is only one realistic political choice -The Dems.
But not all immigrants are liberal or left. Some are conservative by instinct. It doesn’t have to be the dumbest damn take on liberal, left, conservative though if there is a non civil libertarian and non crazy take on libertarianism and right, I have yet to see it.
So
This is using immigrants like pawns. If people vote Trump (same as with the condescending and cruel stuff targeted at poor rural white people-who in my experience are generally really nice) “Why can’t they see how awesome we are? Let leopards eat faces!😤Haarumph”
There is a page set up to deport Nicki Minaj. One may question the judgement of anyone who chooses to be anywhere near JD Vance 🤭..I am wearing a dress!!!! But it is the same football match, cruelty theatre dynamic. A lot of it is hard to peg as left or right and I definitely don’t mean it as those as those cynical, soulless prostitutes of the NYT would. But this is cato/aei/koch/bigtech etc using population explosion, a broken media to drive a global race to the bottom.
I generally detest The Jacobin. They are a type of awful state capitalist
I can say Ben Wray
I mean I get it. I also consider it bullshit when Lyman Stone/David Brooks/Musa Al Gharbi/Ted Goia and these blatantly phony & prime samples of kraken food cynically exploit “the working class” - a mechanically invoked “working class” whom no one knows to cynically shill their next books which have no connection to anything but will attack climate scientists/Dr Fauci etc and push pronatalism.
But it is also phony when their “left” counterpart kraken food Betsy Hartmann/Naomi Klein/Yasmin Nair/Aviva Chomsky etc talk mechanically about “the brown people”.
It is so depersonalizing..”the brown people, the working class”…who are these people?
If I don’t make a quick dash for the door, will I be next in this hapless pawn in these guys’ culture wars category? Would I be the “poor oppressed by white and male supremacy woman?”
Yup oppressed..That’s me 🤭
Well so that’s a non-starter which then means you are slated for Crazy Lady Yelling at Clouds!
Okay yes that is a far
You obviously conclude that it is all about this person. It is the same thing the always Andy Nikiforuk (who would never write like that)
I have found a political home
Much warmer, more fully embraces the Green and animal rights left instead of leaving one with ghastly options like that piece
I cannot see any human with any damn self-respect who saw and experienced everything that I did between Fall 2011-2012 going back to that country
But I emphasize that it was never America or Americans-I do not subscribe to these bullshit stereotypes of rural white American, Americans etc. That was not my experience and I was genuinely fond of the scientific community I knew (all in the natural or medical sciences).
And most people of all types have shallow, irrelevant to reality, dishonest, bumper sticker politics not just such people. And I don’t mean it in this dishonest fake curmudgeon Lyman Stone way.
I am here because I generally agree with DU’s mission. But most people I find have very generic politics that are largely a function of their background and whoever they herd with and views they parrot zombie like and which turn on shallow reasons.
Throughout this foul period I have only kept moving more left, but that became a lot easier once I found Yasha Levine etc something living and vibrant over dully staring at The New Yorker or dear god “The Atlantic” (a pet hate of mine.. Nathan Robinson hates it too!) and miserably thinking “God..I fucking hate this species”
Thise
If anything the sole plus
And I am not insipid or sycophantic. Nobody but nobody orders jfz9580m around! But I did feel
Your media and billionaires and corporation friendly politics
Disinhibitions
Honest conv
Homeostatic
Holistic
If there was a multiverse these
Seriously you don’t know me and you nece will
It isnt my nature to be angry, querulous wtc
My lens on reality is purely absurdist as a relatively fortunate human
But no one is lucky enough to weather knowing ypi guys
Thjs od yir honrfy convo
Hunch
Strongerr de huncg skbde mmetfirmi
Why should anyone appreciate your culture etc in foreign countries when you are too insular
These things are
If you “assimilate” but are a ahallow girlboss or boyboss narcissist
A 1000 microcultural
Whatever “white resentment” etc. But you arent any different
People are the same and a subset are these huge narcissistic pains and another subset respond to that. Wet markets are not cultural
My niece who is a very savvy and surprisingly worldly young persin aboit “cultural appropriation”,
“What are these people going on about? Thsre is a country of a billion people right here- your cul
If you affect any of my colleagues or friends or this one young psrson
I am
So there really isa lot of bs. All that stuff t
I could call out right wing rot but it would be redundant and pointless and not very honedt wgen i havd been far more terrified of one of these bullshit defenses of immigrants or non white people calculated to annoy everyone in a 10000 mile
It is not that in any way I fail to understand or skewer foolishness of any kind
The reason for thus fit
I refuse to be sitting duck for whatever this kraken are
What is so great about a genuinely awful person like that Vinod Khosla-a billionaire with four kids and a
I am an unlikely person to I guess crack any kind
I have not been inside your head so
Of you are a semi reasonable person you will finf that if you assess someone..lomg befor you assess -if this person Hindu/Muslim/Christian/Jewish/Black/White
You woulf probably find that you are assessing
“Is this person honest? Are they sleazy? Are they a basically decent
and trustworthy person?
And in my case, as apparently some sort of unfairly categorized as idiosyncratic person you would find though not a shit robot that claims that from microexpressions and keystrokes
Is this person or are these people just too impossible to communicate with
I can be kraken too! This is me finally flexing my kraken muscle! Because your collective stupidity, disingenuousness, sleaziness, callousness etc as as
All of ypi factory farmed meat and
You back the horrifying
Or yoi exploit issues like
At yhe start of blm there was a lot of genuine sympathy
But thrn got ruined by this online gadfly type that exists as much on the “left
One huge stressor for me in this peeiod has been male disrespect. Look I don’t come into your spaces and girlboss etc.
But I have never had transactional or sketchy relations with men, quid pro quos etc
I have now learnt the hard way aa well that solidarity etc can be misinterpreted if people are lonely.
I can’t really ever help anyone who feels lonely as I don’t really understand it. I am a solitary sort of person who feels loneliest and drained in crowds.
Maybe iy is that I genuinely miss yhe pleasant reveries and brown studies and it is non optional to lose them any further to this perpetual annoyung
We are goimg yo unambiguously work out some legal precedent here.
Life in the Burgeoning Surveillance State
1) First the absurd but with a significant annoyance level
I woke up this morning to get this message from my ex, with whom I am very. We are family even though we were not a good fit as a couple. We were not a good fit because most of our marriage was roughly like a surprisingly contentious debate I saw between Alec Karakatsanis and Matt Stoller moderated by Briahna Joy Gray. It was unfortunate because it was the rare debated
Anyway I woke up this morning to a message about smart underwear that tracks bowel gas emission. The type of thing that causes my ex an inordinate amount of pleasure. He is in every way a decent man, but he is a white male and I am an Indian female and I think these are what people refer to as cultural differences!
He probably would not mind a sensor that tracks his bowel habits. I would consider it demeaning to have such pointless drivel measured.
I mean jfz9580m may not be the most inelegant or glamorous female around..quite the reverse really but I have enough self respect to assert confidently that it is a very personal taste where you sign up to go around volunteering measurement of your bowel gases, stool quality, mucus release.
In no way, can this be considered a universal thing and the worst off people would be least able to tell the fucking demeaning, fascistic and whorish fucking cunts running these surveillance that “Listen you demeaning, bullying fucking twat. I am not signing up for some blanket mass surveillance thing chock full of creepy sensors distributed without the general public’s knowledge using ubiquirous computing basically to sell more ads and shill worthless shit like that puerile ChatGPT thing that only a complete rube would be impressed by and anytime someone in CS claims it is impressive, I at least think “charlatan/cultist/moron/excessively agreeable, civil and diplomatic”
I remember a time long before I had been kicked out of every system everywhere where I used to be diplomatic-ish. Never with any great succees and one can run the risk of being unfortunately transparent and possibly inadvertently a bit insulting in one’s peacekeeping efforts roughly calculating that if all these thorny, unpredictable amd short tempered people get at each others’ throats it can make ol’ jfz9580m’s (the pinnacle of absurdity - I have the brain of a left wing troll and for some reason Ol’ Orlick has been on my mind in connection with a detestable nurse and physiotherapist at a greedy, opp
Btw I am furious that in this poor hygiene data environment some asshole must have slandered me to one of my Muslim doctors whom I respect a lot, who would never be anywhere near any disgraceful Pentlandesque or kayfabe things.
Fortunately my oncologist whom I absolute love (as a doctor-he is married with kids and one of the nicest humans I have ever met. Sadly that has to be spelt out in these pervert fests out there..he is really cool. One of the most honest and hardworking people out there but somehow like most of my colleagues and doctors it is never a sort of brainless reproach against the disabled/badly off or even disreputable wags like ol’ jfz9580m. Slavoj Zizek should be fed to kraken..total creep. No wonder he liked that camgirl person. Evgenia Kovda is awesome. Now that is a women’s libber of me own type unlike the girlbosses.
But I digress - to weave back to the point at hand
A creepy little man called Paradiso makes various creepy non products and non services that I at least have no use for.
Incidentally a lot of these guys’ faces are no longer online
Some of it could be worry about creepy things like ClearView. Some of it could be in this Gift of Fear
But well
Someone like Alex Pentland/Fei Fei Li(she is one of the boys!)/Sheryl Sandberg etc might come up with a fake whoopie cushion
It has been a sort of hobby of mine to viciously guess products and services that Alex Pentland and Ben Waber would come up with in th
I am not here all week and I have to now go to pick up the pieces of
I am never even travelling to the United States ever again, unless JD Vance extradites me for not wearing a dress.
If I ever traveled again it would be only to civilized countries like those in Western Europe. And only if ot wasn’t a pity/bullshit job or a made up
As my best friend says..it is not just trend following..oh cancer is popular! Ai! There is
So if it doesn’t have to do with my specific line of research and
Maybe I will randomly luck out again someday or not. With the way education and science
Because I am not 100000000000x, I work 20 billion hours a week and have an organ that reaches all the way to mars and (this ridiculous movie I saw called The Materialists …human thought and the status of women has degraded so much in my own lifetime at this point.
I blame the essentially insipid brash girlboss as much as this laundry list of meninists and creeps.)
I plan to log off and focus on my own research
As of this date, I have done my due diligence by everything I care aboit
1) the role of women and visitors in stem research
Personally I think immigrants is an outdated term..visitors where people have enough resources to bail when these creeps and fascists go hardcore crazy playing chess with human lives. I am not contemptuous enough to have a term for any humans forced or manipulated into dealing with these pricks on their
Dead-eyed slack jawed moron for the types
And Perilaus
This noxious and brainless Yimby Freddie DeBoer who drips with self loathing as well as contempt fpr his fellow and is all fpr coercive psych, makes actual false allegations
Unlike poor ol’ wjo thanks to a mix of caution (the truth always prevails!) wrt people one dislikes and genuine decency otherwise And it damages MeToo when you do that and no one should support tjenkind
As is clear from this fine riff ol’ jfz9580m isn’t
I have no intention of letting a collection of men’s rights twats groom me for the role of Amy Cooper ya dig 🥺?
Shove your paranoia about “false allegations” up your fartarse you pricks
And don’t try blatantly disingenuous “but the language! I support women! This woman’s language is an outrage”
Is it that I am not wesring a damn suit. This isnt a bloody tea party or comedy hour (except in hell) you disingenuous, pearl clutching fraud.
Live by the sword die by the sword you fucking twat
Well okay it is not just a tonne of pot. I honestly don’t claim to be anything but a flawed, contradictory human being.
But I keep feeling like I am groomed to be some kind of fall guy or someone whom everyone hates for something going wrong.
And that is unfair. I can be glib now.
And I don’t think this will change anything broadly, but I do hope it will make my life easier going forward.
I try to stay in my lane as much as I can within reason. That is also my street out there and I don’t want your brainless mapping projects, influencers and bot tests on there. Fuck off and go annoy someone else man
A big part of my brain in male-female conflict, an unfortunate feature of life and it is so complicated.
I think honesty is the best policy to ease all our lives
I have learnt from bitter experience at this point that genuine sympathy for downtrodden male types can be misinterpreted and well that sort of sours things. And what begins as sympathy ends up getting close to contempt as I ..I would be a good candidate for solitary confinement over the Oscar Wilde thing
And I don’t like that.
Not to be all touchy feely. But I do have a lot of solidarity for my fellow humans..from a distance.
When I see some unfortunate blunderer getting roughed up by a mob for saying something daft I feel sorry for them. I feel sorry for all sorts of people..I never think leopards and faces.
But well..on the flip side I also don’t think scolding people accomplishes much.
If a strategy only works on hectoring, bullying sycophants, you are not getting the best people but a damn cult.
A huge influence on my life is my dad. He is a military vet (he was a commodore in the Indian Navy) and a professor for many years after.
He is actually a really sweet man and for all that he would not use that term, he is a feminist. These labels are sometimes confusing.
One thing that always pleases me about him is that he is always genuinely shocked at the thought of anyone exploiting or being cruel to women
He is actually very popular with a lot of people
I guess, no man is a hero to his own kids so I used to think he was kind of a bore ;-/. And more to the point, I used to feel that “okay you are beloved by all these randoms, but you barely notice that I exist”. Not a whole lot..because I am not querulous that way.
But I am very territorial. I don’t come and make free with your stuff and you can’t have mine.
So if some random ingratiates themselves that would piss me off.
I am only middleclass and I don’t have enough stuff for some sleazy random who tries to flatter my
dad. But dad is pretty savvy and (this whole thing has a point. Do you really think I would bore everyone with a generic sob story about a dully happy family and am entirely non lurid set of experiences?)
This is an increasingly resource depleted space.
But a few years ago, I started noticing that dad was - he had always been a really supportive dad. He knew I was struggling. But he started becoming weirdly unsympathetic.
And I wasnt doing anythint but sittint in my room triny to work amd gloomily hoping that Sundar Pichai (I alwasy hated that guy..he is a dead-eyed zombie..hey kraken that guy👉
I totally want to be a kraken traffic cop..come on kraken expend that excess energy fruitfully)
But I started noticing and well..
I am hesitant to wade into these junk tech waters because I dont think more cottage industries of analyzing and studying these stupid these things should be funded
Only Timnit Gebru/Dair/Emily Bender and Yan Lecun have permission to assess idiosyncratic crazy person non-blogger jfz9580m
And Ajit Doval - he is the only conservative (presumably) friend I have!! And well this is a security and economic war of attrition issue
With the bullshit muted-yeah I do not want to learn to code etc and have many rules. But I am representative of a large number of white collar middleclass females in stem.
I have managed to do some work over the years. And were I a charlatan or more likely unused to having a guage I could exploit that.
In my circle there were never any pis who absolutely did not deserve it and these are people who are cool. But I am scared of them.
Not scared ot them because they are ogres.
But well..to always be this person everyone hates who shambles up with a dog ate homework excuse and sub par work
Because these are people who without all this and unfair competition always stressed me out.
It is one thing to piss off a total jerk/creep etc.
If you are irking people like those that is definitely on you.
But then it gets all mechanical and like mimicking sole woman I have no desire to be whom. i tried
Well i dont want to piss them off. So if specialized intelligence is off the cards (god when I think of the years and years when I mechanically would
But if I am not a charlatan, in common with all these other guys, I have what can be a very annoying trait when you do not know
I can be a zealot. And I have the hardest time with that. Because all my life, it has been a simple “yes” or “no” thing
And as years of uncouth and bumbling posts attest to, gray areas and maybe always fill me with alarm.
While I have a chequered career behind me, leaving a trail of broken instruments and confusing posts, I have never had any transactional relationships or quid pro quos.
I don’t think it is fair to call someone pampered or sheltered. Rather this right here is the race to the bottom I am super leery of.
Fascism or transactionalism.
Last night I dreamt I was at an airport and buying sweets labeled Musk. A few weeks ago I woke up having dreamt of Josh Hawley..he is my friend!!!!!
Of the two I pick Hawley because Hawley has some degrowth of the right type instincts that I can respect as opposed to Rand Paul or MTG or Mitt Romney (a ship jumping sleazebag of the worst type)
And rather than have Musk Sweets in India, I would request Senator Hawley to not stress out my friends at the NIH or federal workers..
Come on Sen Hawley, give peace a chance. Steve Bannon and Laura Loomer are grifters.
I am as left as they come and humane not Freddie DeBoer or Slavoj Zizek (oh law and order leftist and tough on immigration are you? Oh you mean your mediocre “work” cannot compete with a flood of other mediocre non work..i’ll law amd orderyou
Society made me do this!!!! Troy Farah..Yasha Levine..someone help..you are a bad influence!
But to check this rogue’s gallery of obvious kraken food: Shalab Kumar, Bill Ackman, Neri Oxman, Ed Boyden,
I am never coming to the US again. These days I can detect a false note in my writing. I prefer zealotry to encouraging a race to the bottom.
I can take Hawley seriously. That Ketanji and Jan 6 thing was not cool Sen Hawley. And this vicious treatment of immigrants is hateful.
But I too think the US immigration system is broken. I absolutely think that poor white people are getting a bad deal and
I don’t understand transactionalism. But I can respect someone being the best take on what they are. Like my dad. He is a conservative man and as he says, a patriot. But he is a good man.
And this media environment is encouraging charlatans, ahistorical think at the expense of anything less like a brutal theatre of the absurd.
;-/ I am more cut out to be kraken - again, not in the stupidest fucking ways. I am not going to lift weights and ..it doesn’t seem to translate that I am not a fool.
It is just that no one has any defense against an avalanche of stupidity with muscle.
And I don’t embrace China as a super power, for all that I would support any truly bullied Chinese people as mucu as any, though not the mob symbol thing.
I don’t like mobs. They can’t be reasoned with.
Come on Senator Hawley..I don’t want any of the labs I worked in or scientists or doctors I knew or worst of all my ex-husband or my best friend
My mom’s death left me permanently worried about random bad luck with a side of malice or just plain old stupidity
All of this fills me with the sense of a tightrope (I beg to differ with Adam Becker on one point as I type with my human fingers) act’s tension and I will stop one of these days soon. I would like to think immediately, because I have my own work to do and if one does too much of this it sends the wrong message. That hey this person actually enjoys this shit (which okay..Like Ol’Orlick who was bullied and beat 🤭
I don’t know..I am not cut out for either the victimized female role or the excessively abrasive female (why would something that is annoying in those male boss types be appealing because it is a woman..that is the worst type of liberation. Acquiring the worst qualities of your oppressor..The troll thing..I blame chapotraphouse whom I only listened to once but well I don’t know them and in case I inadvertently break something I don’t want a real influence whom I am genuinely fond of like Yasha -Levine not Mounck (kraken food) being blamed. Sorry chapotraphouse..I don’t know you that well. They made me do it!
I am popular!
This was a horrible time. When there are no creeps, assholes etc around sometimes my dirtbag left side does come out. Coleman Spilde encouraged me!
I love the left..Ol’ jfz9580m would not have any breathing room without them.
Because it is not quite honest to blame any conservatives with whom as in the real world where people understand things I have had friendly enough (tacit agreement to shelve politics) or more rarely coldly correct engagement.
Hey guy-I stay in my lane and meet my obligations and you stay in yours.
And when I do try to support people it is never..
It goes back to my dad..It is also why I talk to DUers like our own PCIntern. The real world is way cooler. You cannot even have these moronic genuinely stupid rules like- no private sector 😤. Yes anything extra I do is going to go towards my friends in the public sector, on the left etc.
I love Yasha Levine (again …like my onc..this disingenuous pervert fest makes it hard to point out that only civilized male female interactions ..I am not going to say this again..as it is demeaning. I get into elevators with men all the time. If they are the wrong kind of men, then the question is “okay can take on ths piece ot kraken food?)
Which brings me back to - I have so many thoughts related to the last 15 years at this point and what I consider the relatively reasonable human female citizen or publicly funded scientist’s
EarlG knows me well enough by now I suspect to not see this as anything but not take the DU mission in the dumbest ways
I don’t believe in rule by corporation.
Except if it is my dad, conservative men fill me with trepidation.
I am already the belligerent lefty